I am not one of those people that has to talk themselves into going to the gym. The gym is what makes me happy. I know for some it isn’t necessary; for me, it is. I could stay there for hours and hours. It has not always been this way.
Although I would consider myself to have been a relatively active person most of my life, I have struggled to control my mindset/diet/drinking habits in the past. In Feb 12’ I decided I needed to change my life. Over the years I have gone through ups and downs with my weight and usually when the downs have happened it hasn’t been the healthiest of ways.
I struggled in my early twenties with a lot of shit.. There is not anything special about my struggles. Everyone has their own and I by no means believe that anything that has happened in my past was an excuse for the way I treated my body; it wasn’t. I wasn’t ready to be healthy, wasn’t ready to take care of myself. End of story. It took me years to figure it out, but I did. I think that past will always be with me, but I can honestly say I don’t regret it. It has taught me a lot.
There have been a lot of changes in my life the past couple of years, and this is a change I am making to better myself. This isn’t for a summer body, this isn’t for a boyfriend, to show people what I can do; it is just for me. I have never looked in the mirror and said, ” wow, you look great!” That is why I decided to make this change. I want to make sure this time I do it right. I know there will be ups and downs, good days and bad. At the end of the day though, I want to be confident. I am confident in so many aspects of my life and I refuse to let something as stupid as my body control how I feel about myself. This isn’t a diet for me, this is a lifestyle change. I am striving to eat well, to learn to cook healthy, to learn to enjoy cooking healthy ( I am a lazy ass when it comes to cooking).
I want to be strong, fit, and more than anything confident with my body. I want to have less fat on my body. I want to be able to run 5 miles without wanting to shoot my feet off. Not for any reason other than the mere satisfaction of saying; I have done it.
I am here to further my own knowledge of exercise, nutrition and to motivate myself along with others to live a happy and healthy life.
Day of my first lesson !!
This was the year I graduated college; I was absolutely blinde to how horribly out of shape I was. At an all time high of 139 ish. I am 5’2, and that amount of weight just does not do anything good for me. It is so embarrassing for me to even have this photo, but It is so nice to be able to look at where I started a few years ago compared to where I am now